venting...i want someone to tell me thats ok.
sometimes i know why i cry. because i either over think things, or i get my hopes up. one converstaion, one sentence, one WORD is enough to start it. one little idea - and bam! thats it. this is either a bad idea(overthinking), or a nice idea(getting my hopes up). alot of the time, i am very glad noone can read my thoughts, or that i cant control things with my mind.
in my last journal i talked about wanting to know myself. well i know one thing - as indecisive as i am, when i DO decide on something, its hard to change my mind back, or to get that particular idea out of my head, and i'm mad if it doesnt work out. this annoys me. cos it means when i dont have any control over it, and it DOESNT go the way i wanted, i have a minor breakdown.
today its not strictly my fault, but i dont want to blame him either. he was clear that it was subjective to what else was happening, but i still got my hopes up, even when i spent the whole day telling myself it wasnt gonna happen. grrrrr. this is why i annoy myself.
i dont want to burden him or anyone else with my weaklingness, but sometimes i just want comforting. as selfish as that is. i just want someone to tell me its ok. i want someone to tell me i'm a good person. everyday i tell my friends it'll be ok. because i honestly believe that, but today, in my selfish, selfabsorbed mood, i want someone to tell me that my crying isnt a character flaw. that its actually a sign of a healthy person, that its a good thing. i need that right now.
but then again, i probably wouldnt believe them anyway.
Shame
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"be who you are and say how you feel,because those who mind-dont matter,and those who matter-dont mind" -dr seuss (i wish i'd said something this cool)
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There's only one way to fix a clock. And that's with sugar, butter, jam, and tea. But no mustard. That would be silly.
-Mad Hatter
Have you been told that you’re a rude old hag lately? Or is it just assumed?
-Vice Sin
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"be who you are and say how you feel,because those who mind-dont matter,and those who matter-dont mind" -dr seuss (i wish i'd said something this cool)
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"be who you are and say how you feel,because those who mind-dont matter,and those who matter-dont mind" -dr seuss (i wish i'd said something this cool)
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that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs.
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